sumtyms i feel that i am taking a wrong turn. it doesnt differ from all the other tyms wen i feel like i dunno wat i am doing. i mean the decision is made and have already been consented by my parents. but i still do feel like sumting just not right at the corner of it all.
i dun diagree the fact that this has been my decision. and prolly wat i want so much but theres just too many tings at stake to be all abt me.


every1 has sumting to say. and it does bother me in a way coz they are not random ppl. and everyting feels like its tearing me apart. it feels like having myself pulled in every direction.
its starting to hurt.
its not easy to haf a decision made and actually stick to it. i wish i culd but i just cant.


this didnt help the r/ship at all. new sets of problems were brought up. the ones we haf been wanting to stay away from. the ones wich we tot we culd take lil steps to get to. but no! the bridge haf to be crossed now. and it hurts to know the things being said.
but it still doesnt make a difference coz i am still being pulled in every direction possible.


its those littlest things that hurts. those little things whereby ppl tink its for the best but nvr spare a tot for me. isnt it my life? even tho i haf a gazzillion feelings to care for. but isnt it ultimately my feelings that i haf to look after...
isnt it?