the more i tot abt it, the sadder i get. and the sadder i get, it makes me more afraid than ever.
wat makes me scared is the fact that i noe wat i shud do and that i just dun want to.

i cant seem to finish this post. coz everytym, i set myself to write someting, i will only end up in tears. wich i wanna avoid coz i haf my whole hols in sg to actually do it.

i wonder wat it'll be like. and i just get scared after. wat am i to do? as much as i dun wanna tink abt it, i noe i haf to anticipate wat is it that is gonna happen. at the very least, it wuld help me in moving on and in accepting.

honestly, i am not too sure abt wat the fark i am going on abt. in me, it feels like a gazillion tings to write and pour out but wen i try, it nvr seems to happen.

all i noe, and sure abt is that i dun want this to end. one ting for sure, he makes me smile no matter wat. he makes me happy without a doubt. and he do loves me with all his heart. and that is someting i dun wanna lose. its not everyday you get a man to be your lover and your bestest fren at same tym.

sorz for the long hiatus. u noe the deal wif exams period. so nwayz, its all done for me. xcept for my freaking project, which was extended to end of feb by my supervisor. well, not much fuss for me tho but there will be heaps of paperwork to be done during my hols in sg. that and catching up wif frens and going to weddings and kl. and spend time wif dearest family.


it feels gd feeling to noe that i am graduating. in march that is. tho i am a lil bit clueless as to wat i will be doing. yes! i am still caught in btw staying and going back. well, will haf to see how the talk wif my parents will turn out. i wuldnt be farked to be thinking of it right now.


so the boy took me to my 3rd rave. to see scott brown. well, that was the only set we ended up seeing coz i was farked by then. one word - that man is awesome. i've heard most of his tracks but to see him live was sumting else. fantastic.
so back to me, i was feeling so sick wen scotty finished his set. so the boy took me to the car to rest. i felt bad coz we went out to njoy so i told him to leave me in the car and go. wich he did after much insists on my side. but he came back after like 10 mins or so. he doesnt want to leave me by myself. heh. andy drove us back.


well, it turn out to be the best day for us. we did absolutely fark all. we spent the whole morning wen we got back just cuddling on the couch and talking. abt everyting. random stuffs. watched sum movies. and spend the afternoon snuggling and talking again. wich is good. it feels nice to not to anyting and just spend time wif each other. just the 2 of us. so we decided to continue the night with dinna from maccas and rent sum movies.


i adore the boy. and lurve him as much as he lurves me. its amazing how tings culd turn out to be and i am glad it did this way.
right now, while waiting for the tym to pass, i just slacked ard at home and play warcraft all day to pass the time. that and doing bits and pieces of my project. to finish up most of my part b4 i go back. and yes! mimz, my flight is set on the 6th of dec. i prolly reach at night.