the more i tot abt it, the sadder i get. and the sadder i get, it makes me more afraid than ever.
wat makes me scared is the fact that i noe wat i shud do and that i just dun want to.

i cant seem to finish this post. coz everytym, i set myself to write someting, i will only end up in tears. wich i wanna avoid coz i haf my whole hols in sg to actually do it.

i wonder wat it'll be like. and i just get scared after. wat am i to do? as much as i dun wanna tink abt it, i noe i haf to anticipate wat is it that is gonna happen. at the very least, it wuld help me in moving on and in accepting.

honestly, i am not too sure abt wat the fark i am going on abt. in me, it feels like a gazillion tings to write and pour out but wen i try, it nvr seems to happen.

all i noe, and sure abt is that i dun want this to end. one ting for sure, he makes me smile no matter wat. he makes me happy without a doubt. and he do loves me with all his heart. and that is someting i dun wanna lose. its not everyday you get a man to be your lover and your bestest fren at same tym.