this is my 3rd yr celebrating my bdae w/o familiar faces. my families and my frens. i tink i haf grown acustomed to it. well, i do pretty much spent most of my bdae by myself back home. i cannot imagine that i was here wen i was 21+. fighting for wat i tot wuld be for the betta of my life. it wuld be in tym to come. prolly. and i remember den dat i tell myself it wuld only be for awhile. that 'awhile' seems so long wen i was going thru the process but it seems like yesterday wen i look back today. i did also tell myself dat i will be back after i grad. no getting of pr or nonwatsoeva.

now, its different. i am gonna make wat seems like to be the biggest deal in my life. the one wich will change everything. of course i am afraid. wouldnt you? but i am gonna make it.

why? because i noe i haf him to go thru each step of the way wif me. no matter if its is gd or bad. and that makes me feel safe. he makes me feel save.

the bdae couple.

btw hun, happi anni! i look forward to having alot more of those to come.

<3