hmm. how do i explain? its funny how in a single moment, ur whole life can turn ard??
it was beauty wat i felt wif you. truly! not till i heard those words. those words i dun nd to hear. at least not today. i felt a sudden rush of blood to my head. and i tried to defend myself or at least try but those words didnt come out right. and we had to leave it at it?? i didnt want to say anyting else coz everything that had been said was all wrong. so i kept quiet and look away.


i gave it a 2nd tots. i realise i wasnt angry wif wat u told me coz i knew that right from the start. i always haf. and a fool in lurve is always a fool. my part is a fool's hope.
but i do cherised wat i haf/had wif you. and i noe u do as well. coz it means so much to us. to haf wat we haf. coz it doesnt happen to everyone.
wat triggered me off i realise was wen u said u wanted to leave it at it. it was not gonna be that simple and i dun wanna lose wat we had b4.


so this is my decision. trust me wen i say its allright. for right now, i noe where i stand so its not all hard for me. at least ders a bit of cushion to help soften the landing in any case. + ur not gonna let me fall that hard. of course its gonna hurt wenthe tym comes. but we deal wif that later. right now, i am just cruising along wif the ride. coz i lurve it and you as well. without a doubt. i understand ur concern. but u noe that i am not like any other gerl you've known or met. i know wat i am doing and i want you to gif me credit for that. coz u noe me a whole lot more than others.


i know this is a foolish game we both are playing. and i noe u dun wanna hurt me. but at the same tym, i noe u want these as well. + u haf got noting to lose hun. i dun either, at least not right now.
so baby, lets njoy the ride. we'll deall wif things as they come. i noe no matter wat ur main concern is still me. thats wat our world are abt. just you & me!