i tink i've been gd. i meant doing good. i come across bits and pieces of my past recently. instead of looking back, i find myself smiling and be content. for once, i am so glad that it happened coz it brings me to where i am today. and turn me into a stronger person.


i spent the whole of midmorn-late afternoon yesterday having an away-from-warcraft tym. wich is good. had a quiet spa session reading wif the boys. went out walking the dogs wif meg, davy and cheryl. it was freezing but it was gd. a whole lot of tinking tym away from home.


alot of frens been asking why i made the decision of staying here. and if the decision is abt a boy. how do i explain that it has nvr been abt a boy. understand that i cant see myself continuing the life i left. esp wen i culd prolly haf a betta one here. and this is sumting i am doing for myself.

and i am not running away from anyting. wif everyting that had happen, ders noting to run away from. this is just me wanting a diff life. and its not for good. i still gotta come back sumtym and i will. wen the tym comes. wen i tink i had enuff. and i know that tym will come.

i understand the concerns and doubts. i do. but i do noe wat i am doing as well. for once. this is prolly sumting i need. + i haf a great guy who nvr fails to be der for me and push me thru. he is prolly the reason why i am pushing myself. because i am starting to believe. and haf faith. and i nvr feel betta. for that and all the support from family & frens i get, i am so grateful.

and blessed.