heh. so the boy and me had an innocent arguement turned ugly wich ends wif me slamming his car door. and that pisses him off so much. silence treatment didnt last long tho. i needed a smoke wich ended up wif me confronting him. and goes the same old story. the one wich we had b4.
i tink i've been tad it bitchy lately. prolly due to the stress and the not enuff sleep. so i gave him all. i told him that the reason why our quarrel nvr last is bcoz of the soft spot i haf for him. i told him how much i hate him just trying to make points so that he wuldnt lose. and instead blame it all on me. and for me, walking away is like the best defense i haf. i walk away bcoz i dun want say things i will regret.
face it. people say alot of tings they dun actually mean wen they are angry. and i dun like to be one of those. so thats why i walk away. we can always talk tings out wen the situation is calmer.


and i explain to him that it wun make him less of a man to say sory to me. and for a fact that its me and not anyone else shud prolly make it alot easier. and we share everyting. seen it all. so wats der to be embarassed or ashamed of? and i noe how difficult it is for a guy to say sorry. i do. but that doesnt haf to be the reason to not say them wen required.
and the best ting, the boy asked me to tell him to apolagize if we were to haf an arguement wich is his fault. like hell i wuld. i told him that tings like these shud come as a willing and wif sinceriety. heh. he has to learn even if it breaks his door.


he assures me he'll learn. that in btw all the hot and cold flushes we been having. we'll see.