i need to learn to keep my emotions/feelings in check. its not gonna make things any better. i just need to learn to keep them in check. no matter wat. i've said alot of things out of anger these past couple of days. no matter how true they are, they are not neccesary. not for me and definitely not for you. having said that, i need to learn to speak for myself and make my own decision despite watever outcomes it may haf. it might seem rude at tyms. like it did just now. tho i nvr meant to say those things out loud, i had to make a point for you to see. but then again, u obviously dun care. you got so use to me that it doesnt seem to matter.


its not gonna put me down but it does wear me out sumtyms. its not easy to read in btw the lines. and as often as it happened, its always put away after. having a soft spot for you, i dun like having these bad aura ard us. prolly bcoz we r both librans. its always me who apologise no matter wat and you saying it doesnt matter. so instead of facing issues pending in front of us, we run away.
the irony is how is that even possible wen we are in each other's face 24/7. our world revolves ard each other. i mean mine obviously revolves ard urs. or so it seems at the moment. i dunno abt urs. and if it does, arent we contradicting ourselves?