so we did go out for movie - scary movie 4. i figured that its not worth blowing off my top. boys will be boys. i was upset coz the boy wuldnt let me get my cold rock ice cream and for a fact that he keeps tickling me. to a point that i hit my knee at the glove box and choking on the water i was drinking. blardy pissing me off.


got home. wow-ed. and started pissing the boy off. fell on the floor. continue. till the boy scratched me so bad. i ran into my rm. asking him to fark off. omfg! it was that bad till the skin actually came off. i was hitting him coz i was so mad!! and he just keeps tickling me. i teared coz it was stinging so much. the boy clean it up and put a bandaid over it. after, all is good. hes been nice. haha! prolly wuldnt last long tho. nwayz, i try not to get on his nerves. the boy is all stressed up wif tafe work. soon, it'll be mine. in less than 5 wks tym.


it was haling in the morn. so bad. i was blardy freezing my arse off.
it was kinda silly to be upset y'day afternoon. i mean watever happened was out of my control. i just hate the way i do feel everytym it happens. but i cant do anyting abt it coz its not my place. i am still learning how to. but after everything, it seems impossible not to be affected. how do i explain that it hurts to see or hear 'else'? and at the sametym, you refer to me as ur gerl.
like last night, wen u lean and put ur chin on my shoulder and i turn, auto, and kissed you. up till now, i still haf no god-damn idea why i did that.


the faint line is getting more and more blurry. i am still learning. trying not to be bothered. the more i am, the deeper i find myself wif you. how culd i not wen those smile are the highlight of my day. how culd i not be wen u look at me whole wen i am entirely shattered to pieces. and best of all, u were the one who haf been trying to fix me eversince. and you haf always known of the feelings i hold for you since that day. was i wrong to say that it shudnt be brought up again? i didnt mean it that way. i was just embarassed.

i am content wif wat we share right now. coz it means alot more.
but know this hun,i do love you!