with everything that had happened. no matter how bad it was, sumthing good did come out of it.
the boy.
my safe harbour. my pillar to lean on.
the one who keeps me sane. who has me all smiles no matter wat.


he is just so accomodating. he holds that much affection and adoration and love for me as i haf for him. and i realise that i wuldnt picked myself up this fast if it wasnt for him. and the best thing is that i nvr asked for him to do all that he had done for me. but he did. so willingly. despite having to put up wif my crankiness and all my overwhelming tots. and my endless whinjings.


the boy spoilts me to bits. i tell you. as do i for him. its terrifying how dependant i am on him. but i loved it. at least wen the world comes down on me, i know i can count on him, for sho!


"light will guide you home,

and ignite ur bones.

and i, i will try to fix you"
i was sitting outside and having smokes, watching them boys do the backyard wen this song came on. coincidently, the boy turn ard, looked at me and smiled. i smiled back. content. my heart at ease. his smiles always make days seems brighter.

and you know wats comforting.
everything. esp wen i am in his arms.

i haf had trouble sleeping at nights over wat happen. sumtyms, i sleep wif him. for the cuddles. i panicked alot wen i'm shaken from my sleep. but he wuld take me into his arms and tells me to go back to sleep. simple. but meaningful.
i am a sucker for cuddles.
and wat more can i say? i love the boy!!